Well, today is definitely a Monday! UGH
My morning started off waking up a few minutes late (as usual). My son decided he didn’t want to do anything this morning without voicing his displeasure and then poured on the tears over getting in trouble. Finally, we climbed in the car (5 minutes late) only to have him ask me a question that didn’t need asking. At this point, I was frustrated enough and yelled the answer at him. (Yes, I am an imperfect mom who sometimes really screws up). So, after tears, an apology for yelling and discussion about the way he should have gone about the morning, we set off to start our day.
Both of us are now trying to get to a good place and get back on track for the day. As we are driving, the sun starts to lighten the sky a little more and the clouds are abundant. My son begins saying the things he sees in the clouds; there’s a snake, an alligator, a crocodile with a fluffy hat, a pig eating a pig eating a (something or other)…I laugh at his silliness and try desperately to find a few shapes to come back with. My skills at this fun game are limited this morning…my brain won’t find a happy place as easily as my son’s today.
I get to work and start checking voicemail, emails, etc. In the midst of all of that, a problem that we have been trying
to fix for two weeks now comes back again. The solution we were told would work does not even come close. So, now we are trying to find another solution. I am fielding Reader Representative calls for an article that was in the Sunday paper that has people miffed. I’m trying to get some things done for my part-time job this week as well that they want done faster, even though I really can’t. And I’m in the middle of a class, that I love, but that is a little time-consuming. In all of this, I have to find time for me and time for me and my son. And then there are the worries about the finances right now and whether or not I will be able to do everything I need/want to do with my income tax check when it comes in. It’s a stressful day and as I type this, I feel the stress even more.
But I am desperately trying to just take this one thing/one step/one day at a time. I am trying to do something that my son reminded me of this morning….I am trying to see the shapes in the clouds…