Remember that in a race everybody runs, but only one person gets the prize.
You also must run in such a way that you will win.
Today’s reading in His Princess: Love Letter from Your King talks about being destined to win and therefore taking the pressure off ourselves to please anyone but God. I love this line, “Take the pressure off yourself, because I did not put it there.”
Until the last two years, I was very much a people pleaser. I still struggle with it from time to time, but I finally came to the place that (for the most part) I don’t care what others think of me. I was the little girl who when I was in trouble, all my mother would have to do is look at me and I would start to cry and be sorry for what I had done. I hated to disappoint. The older I got, the worse that got. I didn’t want to disappoint my parents, so I strove to be the best daughter ever. I didn’t want to disappoint my teachers so I would always offer to help out in class and not make waves. I didn’t want to disappoint my friends, so I was the one they could go to when they needed a friend and I rarely every laid my burdens on any of them. I tried to be careful what I said and did in front of people because I didn’t want to be perceived as stupid or silly. I wanted to be liked by everyone around me and when I wasn’t, I would feel it to my core. I remember that on my 13th birthday, I had only one friend at my slumber party. I felt that one deeply. I look back now and I know it wasn’t because of anything I had particularly done, but it was just what happened, and so I equated that to mean that I must not be good enough. I lived out this feeling for the majority of my life. in the last two years or so, I have come to the place that, unless you are a very close friend of mine, I don’t care as much what you think of me. i am learning that I am OK just the way that I am because God made me this way. So, now I run this race, trying to constantly remind myself that I have already won. I still struggle, more than I would like, with pleasing others, but I am working very hard to just try to please God.
Do you try to please people more than God? Do you care what your friends, family and even strangers think about you more than caring about what you think of yourself or what God thinks of you?