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1 Corinthians 9:24

21 Feb

Remember that in a race everybody runs, but only one person gets the prize.
You also must run in such a way that you will win.

Today’s reading in His Princess: Love Letter from Your King talks about being destined to win and therefore taking the pressure off ourselves to please anyone but God. I love this line, “Take the pressure off yourself, because I did not put it there.”

Until the last two years, I was very much a people pleaser. I still struggle with it from time to time, but I finally came to the place that (for the most part) I don’t care what others think of me. I was the little girl who when I was in trouble, all my mother would have to do is look at me and I would start to cry and be sorry for what I had done. I hated to disappoint. The older I got, the worse that got. I didn’t want to disappoint my parents, so I strove to be the best daughter ever. I didn’t want to disappoint my teachers so I would always offer to help out in class and not make waves. I didn’t want to disappoint my friends, so I was the one they could go to when they needed a friend and I rarely every laid my burdens on any of them. I tried to be careful what I said and did in front of people because I didn’t want to be perceived as stupid or silly. I wanted to be liked by everyone around me and when I wasn’t, I would feel it to my core. I remember that on my 13th birthday, I had only one friend at my slumber party. I felt that one deeply. I look back now and I know it wasn’t because of anything I had particularly done, but it was just what happened, and so I equated that to mean that I must not be good enough. I lived out this feeling for the majority of my life. in the last two years or so, I have come to the place that, unless you are a very close friend of mine, I don’t care as much what you think of me. i am learning that I am OK just the way that I am because God made me this way. So, now I run this race, trying to constantly remind myself that I have already won. I still struggle, more than I would like, with pleasing others, but I am working very hard to just try to please God.

Do you try to please people more than God? Do you care what your friends, family and even strangers think about you more than caring about what you think of yourself or what God thinks of you?

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4 responses to “1 Corinthians 9:24

  1. Jason

    February 21, 2011 at 3:04 pm

    When I was 18 I threw a birthday party. My girlfriend showed up. My best friend showed up. A family friend showed up. The other 97 people invited? Nary a word as to why they didn’t show up.

    Still hurts today to think about it. Amazing how those things can impact us.

     
    • apesydaisy

      February 21, 2011 at 3:17 pm

      I know, if I let myself go there, I can still get upset by it. it’s amazing how stuff affects us and for how long…

       
  2. floyd

    February 21, 2011 at 3:45 pm

    Very odd, I just wrote a post about this very subject last night to publish later this week. The interesting thing is that we were probably thinking about it at the same time. I think God connects people like that. I got a late start today because I’m sick so while I was dragging along trying to get out the door this morning, I was reading through some of your old posts and read some from your mom. I was obviously thinking about you, her, and your whole family. Later before I left the house your mom had left a comment over at my site. Is that amazing or what? I don’t believe God deals in coincidences. Absolutely all of us have insecurity within us, it’s part of being alive in this fallen world. I’ve struggled to learn over the years that if I’m pleasing God, everything else takes care of itself. Oh by the way, I never had a birthday party as a kid… I guess I was afraid no one would show up! Thanks for sharing, I think God uses your words to make all of us stronger.

     
    • apesydaisy

      February 22, 2011 at 8:07 am

      How funny! I don’t believe in coincidences either, which means God had something in all of this for us to see. I know that in slowly going through this book, as well as other things I post, God is showing me something I need to remember. So, I write…because, let’s face it, I can’t help but write! 🙂

       

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